Author's Note:
Hey Guys! Hope you all had a great weekend. Sorry for disappearing last week.I had my internal exams that time. Anyways here is this week's chapter!Enjoy!
Have a great week ahead!
Hey Guys! Hope you all had a great weekend. Sorry for disappearing last week.I had my internal exams that time. Anyways here is this week's chapter!Enjoy!
I AM A QUEEN. AND QUEENS DOESN’T FALL BACK FROM BATTLE.
After chatting for sometime we all decided to part ways.
On
the walk back to our home Reshma started the conversation, “I like the boys.
Yeah, Jason and Sebastian maybe a little bit sketchy and distant but I don’t
think they are bad. What do you think Jhansi?”.
“Yea,
I don’t think they are bad too. It will be good to have some friendly
people when we go to college.
“Well
I hope you have learnt your lesson today.”, stated Jessica to Jhansi.
“And
what lesson would that be?”, she asked with her eyebrow raised.
“Not
everybody likes strawberry. Hot guys like chocolates. I can’t believe you fell
for my trap today!”, Jess replied and started laughing.
“You
little criminal minded oompa-loompa!! Stop! I will show you who fell for whose
trap now!”, she followed after Jessica who had started running.
Reshma
and I reached our home and fell on our couch watching both of our maniac
friends bicker at each other.
What
great best friends we all have! But I know I wouldn’t be here without them
here!
I
know one thing for sure.
Whatever
things life may throw at us , I know we will stick together and look out for
each other. To hell with guys! We all love each other with all of our hearts!
After
the diner episode we all decided to stay in and watching movies and eating junk foods. We spent the entire day
indoors quietly and went to bed early.
The
next day morning when I woke up , only one thought was looping in my mind.
I
am going to college. In a day.
Besides staying away from my brother and parents for three years and I now also have new
responsibilities and have to take care of myself and protect myself. Even though
my friends are here and know about my panic attacks, they have never seen me
having one. The panic attacks always comes during nights and I had my brother
to take care of me in such times.
That
is the reason why he chose a college near our hometown. So that he could go to
college daily from home and come back to take care of me. I too had planned to
go to the same college, but I wanted to be independent. Plus my friends were
coming here , so I wanted to come study here.
Now,
I am all alone. With no one knowing how to take care of me during the attacks.
This thought instilled fear in my usual bold and confident self.
My
trembling hands reached for my phone and dialed the
number I knew by heart.
My
brother, Nathaniel, answered the phone
in the third ring, “You ugly faced devil, speak only if its utterly important
else cut the call”, responded my brother in a sleepy voice.
“You
master the arts of answering phone calls ,Nate”, I replied.
“As
I said , cut the call if its unimportant.”, came the reply.
“I
am terrified , Nate”, I said in a low voice.
“Did
you look at yourself in the mirror this early in the morning?”.
“Nathan!”,
I whispered swallowing a sob.
“Hey!
What happened? Did it come again yesterday?”, he asked seriously. I call him as
Nathan only when I am extremely sad or extremely terrified and about to fall
apart.
“No,
but I am terrified of what will happen when it comes? How will my friends
manage me? We are barely 18. They can’t even take care of themselves , then how
will they take care of me? I am going to be a burden to all of them. It’s so
stupid of me to even think that I can live independently. I can’t even survive!
Let alone live!! Please come and take me back Nathan!”, I completed in a single
breath ending with a sob.
“Shh.
Shh. Stop it Rani. Remember that you have survived far worse things and you can
survive life too! Damn you will live one hell of a life that everyone will be
jealous of you. And you are not a burden to anyone. Don’t ever think of
yourself like that. You are Rani, a queen. That’s how our parents wanted you to
be. Always keep that mind.
And
your friends, they will do anything for you, to take care of you, and about
that I am very certain.
Now
calm yourself and take deep breaths as we practiced. In and Out. In and Out. In
and Out.”
After
listening to my brother’s talk and a 5 minute breathing session later , I cut
the call.
Maybe
I can survive this alone with the help of my friends.
Maybe
I can try to be independent.
But
I should put in effort from my side first. I am a Queen. And queens doesn’t
fall back from battle.
They
plan, practice and fight like fire.
Except my battle isn’t with my enemy but with myself.
After
lying on the bed for few minutes , I woke up and got ready then went downstairs
for breakfast.
Reshma
and Jessica were already up and were watching TV lying on the sofa.
“Morning
guys!, what ya doing?”, I asked them and
settled next to them .
“Oh,
we were just waiting for you guys to come downstairs. Jessi wanted to do some
shopping before finally we start college.”, replied Reshma switching between
the channels and finally stopped at a channel showing a horror movie.
“Yea,
you won’t believe what’s out in the
market now!”,Jessi waved her hands wildly in excitement. “The Gucci
finally released its brand new model
leather pump shoes in green color that matches perfectly with that dress
I have and Gods know that I have been saving money forever to get this shoe!!”.
“Alright!
Alright! We will go shoe shopping today, ok? Happy? Get ready now.”, I said and
shooed away both of them into their rooms but not before snatching the remote
from Reshma and changed the horror movie to music channel.
It
is bliss, sitting on the sofa listening to music uninterrupted trying to soak
whatever amount of inner peace I can gather before starting the college.
After
some time Jhansi came down and I explained to her about the shopping trip and
we both went together upstairs to get ready.
Exactly
after an hour we stepped outside the door ready to face the battle of shoe
shopping and little did we know that today would be the day we would face the queen devil unleashing her wrath upon us.
Author's note :
Hello Readers! Hope you enjoyed this chapter. I am incredibly sorry to say that I wont be posting any chapters next week. Instead I will be posting 2 chapters after 2 weeks.
Have a great week ahead!
“Be spontaneous, be creative, go out and have fun, let things happen naturally.”
- Conor McGregor